if tis is going to be anymor boring,

i might as well jus jump of a building n go to heaven..

i feel soSO bloody bored nw..

online den like no one to talk to like tat..

poor me:(

being ignored by some peep..

i don't like to b ignored!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ignoring me is like torturing me in th last lvl of hell lor..

i am a type tat requires a LOT of attention,

no attention means DIE liao..

i nid some ATTENTION pls,peepo!!!

or i am going to die of boredom..

i hate hols..

i wan go to sku..

i dun care if we nid to study or nt..

i jus wan to GO to SKU!!!!

SIAN....sian..

n stil sian

i tink gt two daes bo post le..

sian those two daes haf been studying like crazy..

ahhh..

nt two daes is actualli 1 dae nia

bt felt like two daes:(

yesterdae:

gt netball practise,

coach say my attitude change liao..

change to a better peep..

lols..took her so long to praise me..

bt doesn't matter gt praise jiu gd enuf le..

after practise was like 5.30plus le..

called ah bu ask if i should bring mei nt,

ans from her yes,

so bloody tired so dragged my feet all th way..

crossing th road tat time almost slp sia..

so scary

reach mei there liao den stil haf to wait for her,

she damn guo fen lor

dilly dally..slow coach..

went home took a bath den did some assessment..

den had dinner wif dad n mei

cos ah bu's company haf dinner tat dae..

after dinner went pa's office to grab some of his tings

kept dozing off in th car..

went home took a bath agn den gd nite liao..

Todae:

slept at tee hui's desk,

during chinese lesson than tat stupid mark go wake me up n ask me stupid tings..

ask me liao i tel him th ans den i ask hu is th peep den

he freaking don't tel me

so doesn't matter lo..

he say is sec 4 de den after tat say is sec3..

lols..so obvious is lie 1 lor

lols

haiz..i tink i nw haf a fone is no use de..

onli can call n msg ah bu..

msg or call others jiu kena scolding..

plus nw kena grounded til CA2 over..:(

sadded..

stupid results lo haiz..

going to study le

felt bo liao..so decided to c other peep bloqs..

i tink everyone noe my name rite??

it is TOH PUAY XUAN!!!!

gt name 1 hor..

so do me a big big FAVOR peep..

don't gif me guai guai de name..

cos my name is veri nice le don't nid other names..

lols..

i gt back all my results le..

i failed one sub..

GEOG..

sian rite??
i gt D7,i can't believe it!!!

i gt C5 for english and science,

C6 for history,

B4 for chinese,

B3 for maths and home ec,

A2 for art..

lousy sia..

Mr. tay told me tat he is disappointed wif my results..

sian..i also disappointed lor..

todae after recess gt briefing on streaming..

after briefing is lang arts..

so..

went up to clas..

upper sec jus ended their recess..

lols..

i don't noe wad was my emotion when i turned around towards H block's direction,

n saw someone coming up th stairs..

felt damn shock at first den i told myself to look away..

i don't tink he saw me though,

n hope he didn't..

yan ting told me todae tat i should nt avoid or do anyting

n tat i should jus live my life as per normal..

well,i am going to listen to her..

i am taking back my promise n jus live my life..

i am going to be myself..

to:tat person

if you r reading tis,

don't avoid me or anyting jus live ur life..

n jus treat me like how u treat me when u first noe me(as a fren)

bt seriously nv ever msg or call me agn cos my ah bu wil realli scold me de..

cos she kinda found out abt us..

kinda nia..

cos i didn't sae th truth..k??

hehe..my AH BUs..two CHIO BUs:)guai de yao ming..stand there let me take:)

feeling BLUE todae,

no idea y bt i tink it is because of wad i heard and saw todae n yesterdae..

it affected me greatly,

making me realise somethings and,

i just decided.

i am going to CHANGE..

i am going to change hu i am n improve,

i wan to make those hu hurt me to realise n regret wad they said n did..

y can't they realise how big th impact wil b on me?
those hu noe me well enuf might believe,

others might tink tat it is impossible..

bt it is TRUE..

i actually cried myself to sleep bcos of wad they did..

ya..surprised?
th girl hu is always laughing and shouting can actually b so weak..

yep..believe or not..

anyways went to cp todae wif queeny,yt and yuen..

cheered me up a little..

wil post some pics latr.

hihi peepo!!!!

going insane le:)

bt is insanely happiii!!!!!

i kinda gt my phone back le bt is morning take,night muz return to

my ah bu:(

lols....although can hold th fone bt,

i can't msg frens

onli can msg ah bu n cor ah bu:(

sad rite??

haiz...

at ah mama's hse nw..

veri quiet,veri peaceful:)

i thought and saw sth tat made me realli wan to say sth..

i would,firstly like to apologise to th peepo i hurt(u noe hu u r..)

i realli hope tat u can erase any memory of me,

unless u already did tat already,

i am sorry for every hurt tat i inflicted to ur heart..

jus forget me,

and u wil b happier

believe me...

i wil help u to forget me by nt appearing infront of you..

it is th only promise i can make and wil fufil..

back to EVERYBODY:)

watching tv nw..

interesting show..a series of unfortunate events..

tis pict. was taken at pasir ris park by my dearest yan ting..th blackie is me and th whitie is yuen yuen...we digging a hole tat shape like a heart bt th water spoiled it:(

hehe...tis is moi:)playing dress-up cos too bored le..

cool rite??my facebook pict:)

lols..it is a big disaster la...

phone kena confiscated and kena grounded somemore..:(

lols sadded.....

went to sku without phone and pocket was empty

somehow,tat made my dae veri gloomy

my heart felt so empty without my phone..

it feels like i lost someone veri close to me and it felt so painful:(

i kept reaching into my pocket bt kept feeling nth inside..

oh ya..i nid to make a announcement..

to kerwin:

do me a favour don't ever msg or call my phone agn or i wil get into trouble wif my mum..

k??tks a lot..

kaes..end of annoucement:)

i don't care whether my mum is reading my blog or not bt i wan to say,

u r starting to make me HATE you so much..

although u r my mum tat does nt gif u any right to jus take my phone to check my messages..

u jus don't understand me..

don't trust me..

am i even ur daughter??

seriously if there is one dae,u and pa divorce,

i wil tel u i wil choose pa..

cos his thinking is different from yours...

and somehow he seem to understand me much more than u although he spend lesser time

time wif me..

sometimes u should jus STOP and think,

before u start ranting at someone..

kaes..

i feel better nw:)

felt so upset..

oh...

i gt my marks for english,chinese and maths le..

i tink i did okok nia..

kaes 4 those hu wants to noe my marks,it is as followed:

ENGLISH(paper 1):14/30(lols i failed)

(paper 2):45/75

MATHS(paper 1):37/50

(paper 2):34/50

CHINESE(paper 1(1) ):13.5/20(letter writing)

(paper 1(2) ):32/60(compo)(jus pass nia)

(paper 2):68/90

_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

tat all i got todae..

mon going to get back geog,history and science...

haiz..

mon die liao lar all three papers like gt damn difficult lor..

all get back at once..

den latr all fail den GG liao..

cos latr wil kena scolded by my ah bu...

veri veri scared i wil fail...

fail le sure kena chased out of hse de...

lols..

scary rite??

hahs..

todae actually going to celebrate theresa's veri belated b'dae de bt cos grounded

den can't go:(

so so so so veri sorry sia..i didn't wan tat to happen either..

felt so bad..

anyway theresa,jus noe tat 'wo ai ni yi bei zhi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'hahas:)

First time tok to yt on phone so cool...

watching
BARNEY nw...lala..barney is a purple dinosaur...tat..tat wad arh?lols..

don't rmb liao...

SIAN..

havin tuition at 4.30-6 sian sian sooooo sian...

yt fa hua chi agn....

believe it or nt th guys r in pict...

th guys r from 'boys over flowers'

lols...

she shoutin,'AHHHHHH....so shuai!!!!!'

shout si bei loud,my ear going deaf le>.<

my mind veri messy nw don't noe wad to do wif my life..

jus wad exactly is happening to me??

i am starting to nt understand myself...

can someone tel me wad's wrong??

lols..

going pasir ris tmr..

going to play water,cycle and blade:)

lols.b4 i tuition yt havin tuition too..den i haf no one to tok to liao:(

no one entertain me liao...

Hmmmm....

wad should i wear tmr??

no idea sia.

ahhh....

nth to wear!!!!!!!!!!

going to wear th ear ringg yt bought me:)

oh...

i noe wad to wear liao:)

i tink i will wear..

haiz..better nt tel ..

wan noe??
tmr go pasir ris den wil noe le:)

accesories can't b too heavy cos going plae WATER!!!!!

BoB Th BuilDer nw...

lols.......

BORED!!!!!so bored...so bloody bored!!!!!finding sth to do bt everyting so bored like tat....ting ask me to watch MVs den watch lo(c i so ting hua:))watch wonder girls de irony,so hot and nobody!!!!!so cool and super SS-uperrrr funny...hmph..i realli angry wif someone nw...i realli realli ANGRY!!!!!nt planning to 4gif tat peep anytime soon...nw..let's change a subject:)oh ya..to all those peep hu r feelin bored,listen...go youtube,type in wonder girls and watch th MVs i can promise u tat u wil nt feel bored anymore:)saw jess todae so freaking happi!!!!hug her in public sia:)miss her so much:(i love ya,jess!!!!hahs...went to library after eatin saw a shuai de kor kor:)ting was like hao shuai ooo...saw another guy is from sk sec de,man shuai de..wanted to ask for his no. bt don't dare to..told dq,yt,queeny and sy..dq and sy wanted to help me bt i don't let them...hahs stil haf to thank them though..i kept lookin at him den a few times he looking my direction den i was like OMG...he like looking at me can...lols...went out of library saw jess,rmb she is sk sec de then ask if she noe tat guy marh...and guess wad?tat guy happens to b from sec 1..lols...yt and dq say i no taste lols...so sad...sec 1????y muz b sec 1?????sobx

WENT to YAN TING hse todae after exam:)
i tink i went to 2 person hse during tis whole week le...
tired lar bt stil veri FUN!!!!
played Yt 's laptop..
hao xian orh...
almost let ma noe i at her hse cos i go msn den 4get to put appear offline:(
so scary...
den ask yuen to say is she helpin me do sth de
tk goodness she believe sia...
den after awhile she called my phone to make sure i in sku den i of cos tel her i in sku lor:)
veri scary can cos i veri bad at lying de
ok den play play liao den watch tv almost fall aslp sia den kor ask i veri sian is it?
den i say yar den goin 1pm le den dq's tcher(i tink...)call her go back to sku to do some work
den as i haf nth to do den i shun bian go home lor...
b4 i reach yt hse i told kenny say i go visit visit him at kerwin's hse den tok tok awhile den i say c first..
den nw reach home le decided to scam him so...
i told him i wan go kerwin's hse ask whether i can go nt den he say can den i tel him i at home le:)
hahs he kena scam by me sia:))

lols...jus reached home nt long ago n haf a urge to bloq so...here i am!!!!
nw i am multi-tasking..watching tv,msg-ing,listening to music and bloqqin!!!!
so cool rite?
i tink th person i msg-ing is ignoring me..:(so pissed off...
went to jonathan's hse jus nw to ''revise''....
WEI!!!don't xiang wai..
it is nt wad u tinkin,kaes..
i was nt th only one there..
there was yan ting,yi sheng-di,Queeny,tee hui,sin yuen,jonathan,yong quan-kor and moi
veri fun sia we use jonathan's laptop play 'hotel 626' ..
scream alot...
bt mostly is cos queeny scream scare until me den i scream de...:)
veri fun and happy wif them cos they r veri funny lot...
love them lor...
oh ya...at jonathan's hse tat time i accidentally scratched tee hui's hand and leg den he angry wif me sia!!he say wad will ignore me for 1 week and wil nt tok to me...bt in the end wad happen?he stil tok to me...haiz..
den we takin turns to play th com den he c me play den come snatch from me say wad erm for every sec i don't let him he wil ignore me longer den in th end add up to ignore me one whole year!!!!so mi pu can...i don't even tink he can ignore me for 1 dae can...
at 3pm some of us went home excpt tee hui and sin yuen...lols gt ps half way haf to walk back myself agn...felt so lonely den around left 1 quarter of th road de shi hou i heard someone call my name..
yuan lai is aaron-kor and alloy...they pei me walk until econ there,so good rite?
bt before they go they insulted me sia..so sad..sobx..
SO...nw i am brooding over de fact tat i didn't study much for chinese bt i believe i can do it de!!!!

lol...
veri SIAN lar!!!!!
everyone studying like siao nw den i like slack ye bu shi study like mad ye bu shi...
haiz...
i tink nt going to be able to tok much tis daes liao..
throat damn pain den voice went out of tune sia..
i am like ee..aa nw can..so xin ku:(
(nt blaming anyone arh..)
i tink it is cos today made too much noise liao...
den veri noisy..
oh ya..
i wan to say sorry to mark agn cos i tink i disturb until him when i was talking to yt
SORRY ARH!!!
and yt,wo gao shu ni wo yong wo ming dan bao i would nv regret wad i said de...
shui ran it will stil hurt when i tink abt ...... bt i wun regret cos i noe i did th right thing:)
so..life stil goes on..
n yt you said if i regret u wil tel sy and Queeny to ignore me for 1 week rite?
well...tat wun ever happen or i wil die let u see..
plus tat doesn't really work on me lor..:)

Psps..
hahas.. 4gt to say wad i wrote 4 the paper 1..
4 my Lang arts i wrote..erm..
question 5..
yep..i tink is question 5 ba..
topic is don't noe wad write abt a school-based learning journey and don't noe describe a skill u learned or sth like tat ba..
chinese is sian 1 lar..
haf to write one compo and one letter..
th letter gt two choices,
one is formal one is not formal de..
so..guess which one i chose?


i chose not formal de..
spend around 30 mins on it..
den i moved on to th compo..
compo i wrote question..
oh shit..
i 4 gt le..
haiz..lao le..:(
bt lucky thing i rmb th question..
it is..erm..
continous writin..
wad erm..i was lying down on th bed when my thoughts drifted to wad happened in th morning tat i was made to decide on sth difficult..
quite easy..
finished in time bt guess wad?
i 4gt to write th question no.
4 th letter writin part..
funny rite?
anyway i told th tcher abt it bt den he kinda ignored me..lols..
den i told manfred tat i 4 gt to write th question no. den he went quiet..
i said lols den started packin my things..den suddenly hor he kinda shouted oh!xue te!i also write my question no. wrongly..den he went a bit crazy den i told him tat nvm lar at least he wrote a no. n tcher might let us change if we ask,den he go ask tcher sia..tcher turn around den manfred tel him den th funny thing happened..tcher told him good! den manfred was like god damn shock can..hahs u should c his face so funny can..
bt anyways tcher in th end stil let us changed it lars..
oh yar..
n after th test i went to cp wif quenny,sy and yt..went to Mcdonald's eat brunch..
den we went walk walk awhile..
den abt 11 i went home cos tuition starts at 1.15
den around 11+ reaching home liao sia den i received a call from amanda tat my tuition cancelled le i tel u arh i sian diao lor..
haiz..anyway tuition 4 tis week changed to thurs until 9.15..
sianz..
bt yi xiang dao exam over tat dae will go out wif yuen they all to pasir ris park(i tink is go there ba)to play and haf bbq at nite wif clasmates makes me so happy lor..
hao qi dai na tian..
i hope exam to end quickly sia..

I WANT TO GO SKU!!!!!
walao hate holidaes sia,so sian can...
haiz..jus finished eatin medicine,urgh..
it was so disgustin can..
especially th antibiotics..
Ee..Don't wan to tink abt it anymore so ew..
SO so want to go back to sku although..
although..
haiz..can't bring myself to tink cos it wil hurt to even tink abt it..
IF nw at sku i guess i would b happily chattin wif yan ting..
haiz..three daes nv c them nia n
startin to miss them liao..
i tink i am closer to them nw le..
goin to stay back wif yan ting after sku tomorrow to revise!!!!
i noe it is like veri bo liao bt i can tel u stay back wif her is si bei shiok 1(:
sian sia watchin okto nw don't noe wad show sia
is abt cars de:(
anyway i tink i finish chionging my homework le..
nwadaes was revision,revision plus revision..
nw come to tink abt it i am sick 4 at least 2 weeks le..
haiz..veri long rite?
oh yar..
gt two papers over le!!
guess which two?
duh..of cos is Lang Arts paper 1 n chinese paper 1 la..
tis week is test..
wednesdae is Lang Arts paper 2,
thursdae is Chinese paper 2,
den..
fridae is maths paper 1..
sian rite?i noe..
hahas..anyway a big shout out to all those havin trouble wif exams..
JIA YOUS PEEPO!!I LOVE U ALL!!JIA YOUs,KAES??