Theres many types of saddness and unfortunately i am having one of that saddness now . You know , there are just times where you feel damn down to the deepest hole that earth have but you just can't bring yourself to just breakdown and cry your heart out and complain about how unfair this world is and act like a kid that did not get his favourite lollipop . But thats not all there is because theres also times when you know you want to cry but you can only smile so that no one knows you are so weak that you cry when small things happened on you . Today , i felt like this and someone who totally had no idea how i felt and what happened to me tore my thick mask that was painted on my face and told me to put that mask down . (And she pinched my face damn hard alright ? HAHA.) I think , that is what it takes to make me totally just break down , someone who can see through my mask . Someone told me this today "Your smile seems sad" i was shocked to hear that , i thought i can hide it well , but truth is , i can't .

Sorry for the depressing post above . APOLOGISES , *bowing profusely* . Lately , things aren't going great , my body is going crazy , i don't know what is happening to my diet and i am starting to notice how skinny i am now . My love life is as chaotic as ever , maybe even tragic . Some things ends as fast as it starts . Now , i look at food and honestly i lose my appetite and even felt like vomitting whenever i stuff food forcefully down my throat . I can now skip one and a half day meal without feeling hungry at all .

Hmm , tomorrow will be having kou shi and after which would be training (: And after after which would be to bring mei to her tuition . OH YA ! This friday would be compassvale secondary's sports carnival , in which , sec 3 would be having a inter-class badminton competition (Hopefully our class wins ! (: 3 G JIA YOUS !! ) . And i cancelled my tuition because of the sports carnival and cause someone would be bored to death if i went to tuition (: ( So noble of me right ? (: ) And the sports carnival is from 3 to 6 pm . *shocked* Yea, no joke . It really starts at 3pm and ends at 6pm . Hahaa .. Thats it for today (: Will blog as soon as i can again k ? (:

Labels: I don't want it to end , but i know you never love me , so why carry on ?